When the morning sun rise, it's another day to face the same things in hopes of new excitement
Woke up early today so that I can work on my assignment and enjoy the day out with my family and I'm glad that I managed, well, complete 80% of my assignment but yet to start my revision. It's nice going out with your family for its how we bond.
Anyway, I awoke today with the idea of typing an email to you telling how I feel about it and every as well as another to him to tell him my feelings and my regret. But I never did. Either that I'm trying to run away from it or... perhaps there's no or. I just don't want to ruin things and the bond that we have build over the years, or for him, I don't want to make things worse than ever since we just became friends and start to get know each other more. I really wanna express myself for that I'll be putting myself at a vulnerable position and I may end up losing a dearest friend who never fails to put a smile on my face when I'm going through all that in school. As for him, I don't want to lose the person who I've used to hold strong emotions for giving you up may mean the hardest things to do, though I've moved on from that.
Humans are irrational animals for they work with their heart and less of their brains, especially in relation to the heart. But I'm of no position to ask you to be someone to me for I'm not even sure about my heart. It no longer pumps madly or make me flush, all I feel is comfort being around you. It's longing to see your presence that's keeping me going somehow or another. Perhaps.... the answer to all these should be left unknown.
(Edit)
Everywhere I go these days, I see the Christmas decorations up already and it makes me feel like a happy girl wanting to do some season shopping for my friends and family and getting the stuffs I want. I really can't wait to spend the season with my darlings and at HK. It's been long since my last oversea trip and I'm so looking forward to it. I won't forget presents too. Please, this year I hope all 7 of us will be able to spend some season time together. Hear me?
Loved and take care.
Anyway, I awoke today with the idea of typing an email to you telling how I feel about it and every as well as another to him to tell him my feelings and my regret. But I never did. Either that I'm trying to run away from it or... perhaps there's no or. I just don't want to ruin things and the bond that we have build over the years, or for him, I don't want to make things worse than ever since we just became friends and start to get know each other more. I really wanna express myself for that I'll be putting myself at a vulnerable position and I may end up losing a dearest friend who never fails to put a smile on my face when I'm going through all that in school. As for him, I don't want to lose the person who I've used to hold strong emotions for giving you up may mean the hardest things to do, though I've moved on from that.
Humans are irrational animals for they work with their heart and less of their brains, especially in relation to the heart. But I'm of no position to ask you to be someone to me for I'm not even sure about my heart. It no longer pumps madly or make me flush, all I feel is comfort being around you. It's longing to see your presence that's keeping me going somehow or another. Perhaps.... the answer to all these should be left unknown.
(Edit)
Everywhere I go these days, I see the Christmas decorations up already and it makes me feel like a happy girl wanting to do some season shopping for my friends and family and getting the stuffs I want. I really can't wait to spend the season with my darlings and at HK. It's been long since my last oversea trip and I'm so looking forward to it. I won't forget presents too. Please, this year I hope all 7 of us will be able to spend some season time together. Hear me?
Loved and take care.
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